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Name: Carol
Country: United States
State: California
Gender: Female


Interests: Writing Poetry/Prose/ Lyrics/Novels/Short Stories/Personal Thoughts and Impressions/ Essays on Life. Sports Volleyball/ Basketball/ Swimming/ Jogging (if that counts as a sport) Arts Drama/Piano /Guitar/Drum
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Monday, November 09, 2009

Coyote

There were coyotes

wandering around your grave

I keep thinking that I am not different,

I should have went

 

You were always a better person than me

 

And I thought of offering myself to the coyotes

So they would not have to search for

 

Pray

 

You might be in some sparkly haven

Some place where angels dance

Maybe you’ll come back and prove

to

atheist me

that there is some kind of life after this

 

Coyote comes from Spanish—cóyotl

It means barking dog.

 

Perhaps the dog was famished,

Wanting something more,

Unable to sit inside a house and believe

This was all there is

 

Coyotes haunt me in the nighttimes

I think I see them peering through

My second story window

 

Maybe you had to know too,

That there was something more,

And maybe in the night,

You’re looking in


My birthday this year...

20 years old. Long, long time to live.

In lieu of birthday money and birthday gifts, I ask that you donate to one of two or both of these non-profit organizations:

1) Nomads Theatre Company, here:

http://www.nomadstheatrecompany.com/how-to-get-involved.php

or

2) The Sarcoma Foundation of America, here:

https://app.etapestry.com/hosted/SarcomaFoundationofAmerica/OnlineDonation.html.

Thank you for all the birthday wishes!!!

Love,
Carol


Monday, October 26, 2009

Doctor

He sliced open the skin
that blocks the entrance to my heart

and commented
     that I have a lovely, red
collection of muscles and organs
     they compliment
my raven colored haystack hair

He hisses at me to dream
so he can pry away the mishap
a tumor placed mistakenly
   very out of place in all the loveliness

I close my eyelids but not
my eyes
so eye can watch

He very much enjoys his profession

$10, 000 at the front desk please
and would you like to see it before it is discarded
     it is in a jar in the back room

And like a nightmare he shakes me
from what he thought a dream
Take 5 pills tonight and 12 tomorrow
     come back in 30 days

I stand and the raven hair falls into place
and frames the square he forgot to sew together

Glad, I bid farewell to the office
and show off the heart visibly beating

I curl my hair to make it more appealing,
like how my mother puts black and white
     pictures in colored frames and
     never wears white
with a French tip manicure


Your Accident

The shape of your jagged cuts remind me of God
because they move in startling directions
with
seemingly no purpose

Maybe he was holding your hand
when the glass began to draw on your body
and paint the sketches with red

And then when I finally send in my resignation
A two week notice letter
You say the heavens will envelope me
and I will know that the scars are masterpieces

It is a shame I do not believe in a God
any
longer

A tragedy that I am slowly losing faith in art


Thursday, October 15, 2009

I Miss You, Steve.

Well I just heard the news today
It seems my life is going to change
I closed my eyes, begin to pray
Then tears of joy stream down my face

With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
With arms wide open

Well I don't know if I'm ready
To be the man I have to be
I'll take a breath, I'll take her by my side
We stand in awe, we've created life

With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
Now everything has changed
I'll show you love
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
With arms wide open
I'll show you everything ...oh yeah
With arms wide open..wide open

[Guitar Break]

If I had just one wish
Only one demand
I hope he's not like me
I hope he understands
That he can take this life
And hold it by the hand
And he can greet the world
With arms wide open...

With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
Now everything has changed
I'll show you love
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
With arms wide open
I'll show you everything..oh yeah
With arms wide open....wide open

 

Yesterday, I visited you and then asked you if there was a heaven.
You responded by playing me this song on a rap station the moment I got into my car.

I miss you.



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